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Friday, 04 May 2007

Currently Listening
Oh! Calcutta!
By The Lawrence Arms
Old Dogs Never Die
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Do you ever look in the mirror and wonder how the person you're staring at ended up where there are at the moment? Today I caught my reflection in the mirror as I was leaving a bathroom. I didn't have time to look too deeply in that girl's eyes but I could see that she wasn't exactly happy. I could tell she wasn't exactly where she felt she belonged, but she didn't know what to change or where to even begin. I never knew someone could look both solemn and desperate at the same time. I never knew I could.

Saturday, 28 October 2006

Well I quit my job today. I just...couldn't work there anymore. I would have died I think. But even though I don't have to worry about working there anymore, I'm still pretty sad. I mean, I really liked working there when I started...but too much stuff has changed and I couldn't deal with it. So that's that. I'm still waiting on Borders, but they've done all my reference checks so if they're going to hire me it will be soon. And if Borders doesn't call, and I have no job and run out of money...well I'll find something. I called Earl today (that's right-Earl himself) and he told me about people in the area that work in the music industry so I'm hoping something comes of that. Today I carved a sponge-bob pumpkin. Happy Halloween.

Wednesday, 27 September 2006

Currently Listening
Under Attack
By The Casualties
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This is probably the most exciting week in my 10,000+ weeks of being alive. And it's only Wednesday!

First of all:

I can drive a forklift now.

In the 7 1/2 months since I starting working at Surplus, I have been begging the boys, my boss, ANYONE to let me drive the forklift. And they never would! A couple times I sat on it when no one was around just to look at the controls and to decide if it was worth the risk of getting caught to start it up. But Monday night, I finally got my chance. Todd was the only boy at work that night (the other one had gone home to do "homework") and so since I was the next closest thing to a boy, I got to help him with case lots. Todd was using the forklift to get to some of the stuff we were supposed to put out and I asked if I could use the lift for my case lots, but he said that it was broke. So then I jokingly asked if I could use the forklift instead. He jumped off, patted the seat and said ok. so I hopped up and tried to finish moving the skid that he had pulled out. It took me a while because the gas pedal was pretty sensitive and the steering wheel was not at all. But eventually I got the hang of it and was picking up and stacking pallets! I had a small crowd watching after a few minutes. Basically that made my night.

Next exciting thing:

I had a job interview yesterday!

I know, I was just talking about how much fun work is. 95% of the time it's nothing like that. sure I get to eat candy whenever I want and boss people around (ha!) but I really don't enjoy my job. It's a bad fit for my personality. Plus, I got a promotion 3 weeks ago and my boss is avoiding talking to me about a raise So, on Monday I got a call about having an interview for a job at the new Borders at the mall. I went in yesterday at noon (barely made it on time) and pretty much aced it. Well, except they have alot of applications and so I might need to come in for a second interview. I'm not too worried about it. The best part is, if I get hired not only will I get to work in a bookstore, but I'll have benefits! And a 401k!

Third most exciting thing:

Tomorrow I will be working on the sound crew of Jesus Christ Superstar!

Slight problem: I still need to ask off work. But I so totally am. I have to be at the Community Arts Center by 8am and it will be a 10 hour day approximity. And I know nothing about being on a sound crew. Yet. I'm peeing my pants in anticipation.

Fourthly:

I think I'll be living at camp this spring!

Yep, Dean and Lanny are working on having the Maple Dell fixed up and ready for my presence come January. this way I'm be close to HACC and they really like the idea of having a full-time volunteer for the spring (anyone else noticing some contradictions yet? I'm trying not to think about them too much) Ahh, camp. This will be an amazing semester.

Finally fifthly:

It's fall!!

Definitely my favorite season. I love the weather, the trees, the candy corn scented candles...everything. It's the perfect time of year for making potato soup and pumpkin pies too. Which I plan to do bi-daily.

Tuesday, 29 August 2006

Currently Listening
The Gold Record
By The Bouncing Souls
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- For All the Unheard
My Official Life Plan!!

First off, I want to apoligize for that last entry-my friends were just joking around and trying to cheer me up and I was way too stressed out to see that.

Now, I would like to share my official life plan with everyone (as of 2 days ago):

As some of you may or may not know, I went (drove!) to Warped Tour last month and it was probably the most mind-blowing thing I did the entire summer. I was surrounded by bands I knew, singing songs I knew by heart and to top it all of, other kids who also knew these bands and their songs by heart! Like, barely any of my friends listen to the same kind of music I do and some don't even understand how it could be at all appealing. But there I was, completely submerged in a world full of little punk rock loving kids like me. It was magical. So there I was, waiting for a band to play, watching in awe as the guitar techs and sound techs were preparing the equipment for the show and laughing in the background with the bands and security and it just hit me that I want to be a part of it all. Every day. Within moments any notions of librarian being a cool career were overtaken and trampled by a flood of emotion to truly be a part of a world that always seemed out of reach. That's the end of my sappy rant.

So, the very next week I begin researching how exactly someone becomes part of the music industry, specifically the technical aspect. Of course I found hundreds of paths and options but the one that stuck out the most was a little school down in Florida called Full Sail. It's a very well-known institue within the music industry and has some of the best hands-on instruction money can buy. Within 12 months you obtain an Associate's degree in your chosen field (they offer a few other programs other than Recording Arts) and are wonderfully perpared to enter the industry. However, Full Sail's Tuition for one year is currently $44,000. I would have to steal everyone else's paychecks at Surplus Outlet for about 3 months to come anywhere near that sum. It's just not an option right now.

So, I started to look more locally. PA has several colleges and even a university that offer some form of a Recording Arts degree. But if I have to choose a cheap option, it's going to be dirt cheap. So it was narrowed down to Lebanon CC and Harrisburg CC. Neither seemed completely feasible and I was getting frustrated and depressed. I applied to Borders and decided to put off the decision one more year.

Then this past weekend I attended my church's annual retreat to Camp Hebron. I'm so glad I went. The speaker was Jed Burkholder's dad and he had some very thought-provoking words. Saturday morning he asked us to think of what we were passionate about. The question haunted me the entire afternoon. I spent two hours paddling around the lake in a kayak just thinking about it.

The retreat came and went and I had a great time. But still no answer to that question. I guess it wasn't so much what I'm passionate about, I know those things deep in my heart. It was more like what am I passionate enough about to actually pursue? So I was sitting in Sylvan lounge, listening to some conversation, hoping it wouldn't rain so I would have an easy trip hour (by the way, it poured most of the trip and I was flipping out hoping I wouldn't hydroplane off the road for a good part of it) when all the sudden it hit my that I was in Halifax. Halifax was near Harrisburg. HACC was IN Harrisburg. I jumped up for the couch and ran to the dishroom to find the head cook. Him and one of the KAs were in there hanging out with Hobart when I came in. I asked if either of them knew how far HACC was from camp. The head cook said he wasn't sure but that we should ask so-and-so (another KAs who happened to be eating her lunch out in the dinner room) as she commutes there from Halifax! So we did and I got a little bit of info from her about the drive and such. I asked the head cook about the possibility of me working and living on camp this Spring. He said it sounded very workable!! So in between my flipping out sessions about all the rain on my drive home, I was flipping out about my conversation with the head cook.

So now things are coming together. I might be able to stay with the hormanship directors' family there (might) and also, the program I want to do is only 20 credits, so if I were go part-time this semester and do 7 or 8 that would be cheap and it would leave me enough credits to be a full-time student in the fall when I would be eligible for financial aid.

Thursday, 27 July 2006

Hi xanga. I'm going to complain about my life for a couple minutes if that's alright with you. Tonight Jamie had to go to the ER again. This is her 2nd time this week, and I think she went last week too. I just feel horrible for her, She's on all this medicine, she's starting to become addicted to her pain killer and it makes her sick if she takes too much. Anyway, I got out of work early to take her..I'm glad my boss was understanding at least. Poor Jamie, she's so depressed. So after Ryan's mom came to get her and we were all leaving the hospital I turned my cellphone and saw Megan (M) left me a voicemail. John's having a party tonight and her and Megan Y and I think Anne are there. But Megan's message with like "tee hee hee, so Becky, we need you to call hahaha Ryan and have him get us some *giggle* stuff. Thanks!" Honestly, I was blown away. I had called her earlier...told her I was at the ER with my sister...aka not having a good night at all and very stressed out...AND SHE LEAVES ME A MESSAGE LIKE THAT?!?!

I want new friends.

Pittsburgh sounds good...so far from all of this.